Some of the pass dug out from the deep.

Was going though my friendster account today, cause it's been centuries since I've logged in to friendster. haha guess wat I've found? So many old pictures and here are some of them. :-)

This was my first picture in church when I came at form 4. I was so so thin-ner then... haha

And YES I found this picture of the guys taking bath out in the open doors. hahaha I can see even the now married Chee Wah, Vincent and Louis. haha All doing shampoo advert, nice~ And yuke bin being sexually harassed by an ice cube by Jason, Dillon and Vincent. Kesian. haha Those were the days. :-)

Ok, I know I look stupid and horny. haha But this was my coolest bald head I can ever get, haha Was thinking of something interesting and came up with a cross on my head... And it caused so much uproar in church. haha

This one was for my class profile. I was an idiot then so this pictures explains why. haha

Took this in Pavilion... and I wore that to Pavilion... Was there with Nigel and Yee Ling forgot what was it for, and my trusty sling bag. haha

My long hair moments... :-)
Hope you enjoyed the pictures.

It's crazy how we miss each other so much when we're apart. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

THIS IS OUR GOD by Hillsong

I bought this album on Monday, and guess what? It was the best christian album I've ever had. haha Great mixture of songs and there are my favorite songs, like Stronger, Sing To The Lord, Desert Song and ultimately With Everything. I like the title of this album too, it is THIS IS OUR GOD, such strong words. haha This bunch of people from this hillsong church had inspire me to write songs and to only glorify God through my voice. Praise the Lord and bless those who give their hearts and strength to praise and worship God alone. I wish I could to, singing all day just so to please the Lord God Almighty. :-) AMEN!!!

This is the front cover, I feel so encouraged and touched by how thousands of people will stand to praise and worship God. Amazing... :-)

This is the back cover with the big title. haha

The song STRONGER reminds me of you. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Lord Your Will Be Done

How should I start? In a short period of time, many things happened. Some were good and some were bad, some were sweet some were pieces of shit. (that rhymed. hahaha)

Been through many trials and troubles that always have made me fall short of God's glory. Always ending up in whole buckets of tears falling from my eyes, and just breaking down and really question Him. In some other time, scolding Him even... begging Him for an answer, but...
no answer...
But for the past few weeks, I realized, out of my stupid and ignorant head of mine. I found out His answers were always there right in front of me... I was just too blind and lost to see it.
Despite all that I've done and I cursed God, He was still there for me... Looking over me... Guiding me... Giving me strength... and sometimes even purposely slamming me into something bad so that I learn... :-) All was for me...
HE BLESSED ME WITH "THIS".
The answer was ''this''.
And I could not believe that it was there all along. hahaha
He showed me His love with ''this''.

These days, it is hard for me to pray one particular sentence,
"Your will be done Lord but not mine or anyone's."
Cause, God's will is and have been always a mystery to me. Something that is and also have always been good for me. So why is it so hard? That I can tell God, I won't do anything about ''this'' and only commit all onto your hands, laying all before Your feet...
Because my biggest fear is that what I love, is not His will at all... It scares me, and I tremble when I pray that His will be done in my life. But what I gotta do now, is just talk to Him day and night about this and hope He guides me through on ''this''. :-) I really love ''this''. It brings me so much joy and hope and most importantly it reminds me of God. :-)

Off to talking to my Daddy God now. hahaha I feel so sissy, but He's my Father and God. haha Ciaoz!! :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I was asked and forced to update my blog by somebody, haha but memang I dunno wat to update abt. Then I was playing with the fish on my blog right over on the right side of my blog

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So I tot maybe i should update on my own baby.
The GARPIKE. haha
When i bought the fella, it was as small as my thumb!! Seriously!! haha but now, after my tender care and loving kindness, it grew so big that it's length is as long as my arm!! And now I have to handle the fella with care and caution, cause it bit me once accidentally la... cause I was rough with it. Someday you just gotta see it eat, no fish can survive the fella, haha once I saw the fella swim at a fish and taking a bite at it, but the fella missed and the poor little fishy's head was bit off. haha AWESOME!!!! But I'm happy how big it grew and everytime I walk by it would greet me by knocking it's snout on to the glass. :-)

Presenting my most precious and valuable possession,


When my cousins first saw the fella and the size of it, they thought it was a crocodile... -.-
although it does look like a crocodile with it's snout, that's why in cantonese they call it
"ngok yu zou"
(Crocodile mouth)

This is only a quarter of its size compared to its other family members. haha
The ones I saw can grow so big it is as big as my whole leg!!! So I'm planning to build a huge cement pond for it and my other babies. :-) Updates on them will be frequent from now. haha

hug :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I Give To You

Open our hearts, to receive You as King,
God of all days, You're the reason we sing,
Live in Your love, saved by Your grace,
We'll bring You praise, for the glory of Your name.

Make known to us, Your will and plans,
To be the church, mould by Your hands,
Compelled by Your word, amazed by Your love,
You paid a price, beyond what I'm worth.

We stand in awe of You,
The God that never fails my soul,
Your light will never fade away,
And forever it shall stay,
And forever it shall stay.

All I am, All I have,
I give You praise,
All I am, All I have,
I give to You,
We surrender our hearts to You, yeah,
Our hopes, Our dreams,
We give to You, We give to You.

All I am, All I have,
I give You praise,
All I am, All I have,
I give to You.

Only His,
Jen Ruw

The Beginning of an End

GROUP ELEAZAR

Well, I stared into the screen like for half an hour and don't know where to start. :-) But here goes~
This group meant alot to me, because Firstly; by God's crazy plans and His undeserving love for me. i was given the post as an Asst Commander. Secondly; because of the members, the committees, the commanders and our mentor. It just ain't Eleazar without them. :-)

We cried, we bled, we fought, we screamed, we sang, we ran, we persevered for this group. And the list goes on. :-) But when it all shall end, the only prayer and hope for all of you guys from Group Eleazar. Is to give your heart to God, not to your friends in the group, not to the leaders in the group, but God and Him only. If you have not done that this year, here and now I challenge you to love God as He loved you, for next year and the years to come. :-)

Here is the last edited picture as group Eleazar,

"God!! I love you guys..." :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Donald & Daisy

Hey, if you are close to me you would know that now I'm a father. hahaha I have a son and a beautiful daughter, they always run to me when I call them, but as they are reaching their teen years, they are quite independent. :-( So they tend to roam around outside of home and only comes to me for food and shelter. haha

Typical for a teenager, they leave their mess for me to clean and always makes that cute baby face, the cute noises that convinces me to forgive them. Cilaka dia!!! haha
Din know what to write so tot that since with them around I feel like a parent. hahahaha I shall blog about them. :-) They are my DUCKLINGS, yes they are, DUCKLINGS. :-) Given by Yen Teng, she so regrets now about giving them to me. haha :-)

Here they are; Donald & Daisy, my grandmother said the larger one was the male. I was like, "Wahlau, both of them look the same, you also know which one male which one female."

hahahaThis one is the larger one, THE DUDE,The mess they left behind... not one mess but countless of them. hahaTill then, later, after, sooner, posts. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I'm back with bloggin !!!

Hey guys, haha it's been a long time since I've started blogging again. So I tot why not i start anew?? :-) So this will be my first post, there will be more special things and posts to come. hahaha

Been going crazy over this guy, cause i sound like him. hahaha
Till then. :-)