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Seasons

2010-08-04T20:02:00.000-07:00

Was reading some posts by normal church members in Hillsong, and one of it encouraged me alot as it hit me like a fireball from heaven! Haha I could be considered a man with troubled mind, and sometimes even troubled acts in certain stages of life. Till some time, I would think to myself, What could God possibly get out of me?? I have nothing left to give! And I am that kind of person, that hungers to be used by Him. As I read the thoughts of this sister in Christ, I found myself awed and baffled by God's grace and mercy. Because i realized in every season God was with me! Jesus never failed making me something in anywhere.

There will be many seasons in one's life, no matter you are a deacon, a pastor,a commander, a committee or even a normal church member attending church. Many a times, when I'm in trouble or caught in a mess, I wonder, Could I be used by Him at my situation?? And it blows my mind to know that it doesn't take perfection to be used by God! How refreshing and liberating! Meaning, even if I'm on a verge of falling into a pot-hole, I can STILL be used by God?? Definitely YES! In fact, God delights in using normal, broken people... to reach normal broken people!

To God no season is unimportant, so keep your eyes, ears, minds and hearts open and soft always.
He can only use You, only if You let Him. :-)

Cheers.

Man Boobs

2010-07-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

Found this funny picture. hahaha Lop sided is sooooooo weird~ :-D

Anyway, I came to a realization about how foolish and blind I was. Truly I was and still is fool who thinks with my dick rather than my head. Sighs...
Thank YOU God for knocking some sense into me and literally sometimes, my balls...(by Looi)

Feel like a fool now, but I am super duper blubber glad!!! Cause now I see how you could have spoiled my life. :-)

~!!!PREPARE TO GET YOUR MINDS BLASTED ON SONGFEST 8!!!~
>8-D
something real special's coming up

A BEAUTIFUL EXCHANGE

2010-07-19T12:48:00.000-07:00

YOU were near
Though I was distant
Disillusioned I was
Lost and insecure

Still mercy fought
For my ATTENTION
You were waiting at the door
Then I let You in

Trading Your life
For my offenses
For my redemption
You carried all the blame

Breaking the curse
Of our condition
PERFECTION took our place

When only LOVE could make a way
You gave Your life in a Beautiful Exchange

When only LOVE could break these chains
You gave Your life in a Beautiful Exchange

My burden erased
My life forgiven
There is NOTHING that could take this LOVE away
And my only desire and sole ambition
Is to love You just the same

Holy are you God
Holy is Your Name
With everything I’ve got

My heart will sing how I love You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=inM9uXOYf_o

2010-07-07T21:16:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, :-) guess what!!? SPAIN WON!!!!! ROAARRRGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >8-D HAHAHA Fantastic header by Puyoh, was SO expecting Villa to score, but oh well, everyday isn't Sunday~ I'm STILL gonna buy David Villa's jersey!! Haha :-D

-The German supporter-
Hahaha Louis looks like Cyclops in this picture. :-D Kinda hilarious though.
-The Spaniard supporter-

And I of course, a faithful supporter of SPAIN!!!! HAHA and DAVID VILLA!! :-D Though he missed the first close, VERY VERY close goal, still I love this guy~ Love his plays. haha :-)
Gosh! Was so happy Puyoh scored that goal~ It was a good game though, tough competition and both great powers in football. With their counter attacks by the Germans and awesome attack speed from the Spaniards. ONE AWESOME GAME. :-)
-GERMANY 0 - 1 SPAIN-

Garlic flavored peanut brought from home... Garlic flavored... Garlic flavored... Have you seen any flavored peanut..? It tasted kinda good though. haha :-)
Anyway, going for class in awhile. So till here!! Ciaoz!!! :-D

2010-07-05T11:21:00.000-07:00

Suddenly in the midst of all my books, I found this pledge that I took early this year. Kinda flipped back and read it all over again.
Sighs...
How have I failed to uphold this pledge so many times. How have I found myself drowned in unwillingness to love those lost sheep, who've God ever so graciously placed in the palm of my hand. How have I tripped and fall into sin, discouraging many and have not forgiven much. How have I found God's work to be a burden, and complaining most of the time, to fellow brothers and even God Himself.How have I always forgotten the faithfulness of His love, and from my shoulders, Jesus took my sins upon His shoulders. How have I lose hope and doubted His sovereignty.

Forgive me O LORD, for Your foolish son had once again strayed from Your love.

2010-07-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Ever since camp, there's been these two whacked out dudes.
And though annoying and noisy at times like the picture, just loooovee to mess things up. haha
But I thank God for their presence in my life, for their laughter, a helping hand, comforting noise, never judging eyes, and their ever popping out from no where routine. HAHA

Woon Han and Ah Hong
Thanks guys.

This is soooooooooooooooooo cheesy....

2010-07-01T10:43:00.000-07:00

My God, My God,
WHY have You forsaken me?
WHY are You SO FAR from saving me?
SO FAR from the words of my groaning?

My God,
I cry out by day but You DO NOT answer,
by night but I find NO REST.
Yet You are enthroned as the HOLY ONE.
You are the PRAISE of Israel,
in You our ancestors put their TRUST,
They TRUSTED and You DELIVERED them.

They CRIED to You,
and were SAVED.
In You they trusted and were not disappointed.

But I,
am a WORM,
NOT a human being.
I'm SCORNED by everyone, DESPISED by people, ALL who see me MOCK ME,
they hurl insults shaking their heads.
''He trusts in the LORD'' they say,
''Let the LORD rescue him''
''Let Him deliver him since he delights in Him.''
Yet You brought me out of the womb,
You made me feel secure on my mother's breasts.

From birth I was CAST ON You,
from my mother's womb,
You've been MY GOD.
DO NOT be FAR from me for TROUBLE is NEAR,
and there is NO ONE to HELP.
From You comes the THEME of MY PRAISE,
in the great assembly before those who FEAR You,
I will FULFILL my VOWS.
The poor WILL EAT and be SATISFIED.
Those who SEEK the LORD,
will PRAISE HIM.
May Your hearts LIVE FOREVER.

2010-06-30T22:25:00.000-07:00

THIS
IS
SOOOOOOOOO
FUNNAY!!!

>8-D

REVIVAL

2010-06-30T21:49:00.001-07:00

Ok... this blog's been dead for quite awhile... hahaha

2010-04-03T11:18:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, been busy this whole week due to heavy assignments and the Easter cantata. :-)

My heart is rejoicing but yet there is sadness. First, I'm rejoicing cause 10 people who came for the Easter cantata accepted Christ and my heart is filled with sadness is because it is missing someone. haha...

All my life, I've never missed anyone so much before... :'-(

Only His,
Jen Ruw

2010-03-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! It's been a very very long time since I've updated my blog. haha Well here are some things that made my week. :-)
Let me introduce her to you, she's my new girlfriend! hahaha kidding la. She's Joey, and she a tiny little girl from my church that is curious as hell. haha So that day when I was upstairs filling some forms in church, she came to me and started looking at wat I'm doing, so I took a pen and start drawing some stuff for her. haha Then she took another piece of paper, and drew wat I DREW. hahahaha It does not look as nice, but it's cute. :-)

This picture below was taken when I said her rabbit looks like a dog, and it really looked like a dog. haha :-D

Her serious face. :-D

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AND LASTLY THIS! :-)

THANK YOU ~♥ :'-)

How am I suppose to live without you... :'-) I love you...

Only His,
Jen Ruw

A visit to FGA (Full Gospel Assembly)

2010-02-12T11:15:00.000-08:00

At last I've got something to update. hahaha 3 days ago, on a Wednesday Ivan Tang and Sok Mun invited us to go visit another church that is either called FGA or CYC not sure which one. haha Well, it was a huge church and facilities were great. They've got a building for their own, PA system that is huge compared to my church's PA system, they had over 20 stage lights, my church only had 3, over 10 maybe 20 speakers, my church only had 5, a huge hall filled with seats, my church uses plastic chairs and when the hall is packed, there weren't anymore chairs, great music instruments and great surround sound and damn!!! They've got a disco ball!!! haha

What's my point anyway? :-)

It is great to see a huge bunch of young people singing, jumping and praising the LORD but, it was more like a concert then worship. haha And it is great that we are making everything huge and nice, having all the luxuries in a church.
But one thing I'm concerned about is, are we using all these with the right motives??? Be aware that we might be boasting about how great our church is, how God has blessed us with many facilities, and how many people have accepted Christ... But in the end realizing that it was the church of satan we were building. That time God will totally own our Christian asses. hahaha :-D

Anyway did not take much pictures, only two handsome young studs~ ahhahaha perasan siot. :-D
Stud 1Stud 2

Wish you could be where ever I am... not in the toilet la. haha :-D

Only His,
Jen Ruw

2010-02-07T21:57:00.000-08:00

YOU'RE MY EVERY GOOD THING... :-)

I love you...

Only His,

Jen Ruw

Just when is it gonna be my turn??

2010-02-03T02:18:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, sorry for the so so so so late update on my blog. haha Cause had no special stuff to post till now. :-)
These days couple of my friend's been buying their own houses, shifting in with their future wives to be, some are having their first kid, some are having a blast overseas and all of them is living quite a happy life. Despite of all the financial worries, I bet God has made their life perfect in some ways. :-)

Then I sat back and my first thought was, ''When is it my turn?" :-/
My second thought was, "Man, the world is coming to an end in 2 years time. I could not possibly reach that stage in 2 years, IMPOSSIBLE!!!" >:-(

But I've always dream about having a nice home, where I could live with the one I love and have quite a number of children. hahaha And come home to a noisy, messy, chaotic, cheerful, loving, and caring family. :-D And to see the love of my life being the mother of my children is just awesome. hahaha Lastly, that's in the household, God will reign over us. My ultimate dream is all these. :-)

All I could do is pray that, that one fine day where all these could happen, would come faster.
:-)
Praise God, Hallelujah~ :-)

I want this dream with you... :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Here starts life with a number 2 right infront....

2010-01-25T21:02:00.000-08:00

WHAT!!??? I'm 20 already!!??? hahaha

The penniless sitar player is growing older, so you should know what to do... :-D

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Your Song

2010-01-20T23:05:00.000-08:00

My gift is my song, and this one's for you,
You can tell everybody that this is your song,
It maybe quite simple but now that it's done,
I hope you don't mind,
I hope you don't mind,
That I put down in words,
How wonderful life is now you're in the world. :-)

Wednesday was the best day in my life so far yet,
Cause with you there will be more of these days coming my way,
God had been good to us, and the sun had been kind to us,
My face were buried in your hair, The aroma fills the air,
I feel butterflies from your every kiss,
Truly and certainly,
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen,
Hope you don't mind,
I hope you don't mind,
That I put down in words,
How wonderful life is now you're in the world. :-)

...my life is wonderful now...

Only His,
Jen Ruw

The Findings

2010-01-17T22:45:00.000-08:00

Last Thursday, I went to Gobi to have lunch with a friend and guess what I found on our plate of watermelon???

If you still do not know the black spot beside the watermelon, it is actually a cockroach. haha There were few, but this dude was the bravest... I tried to shake it off but it just stuck there like glue. There were like four or five small tiny ones running around. hahaha So Gobi goers, this is a news you guys have to know. :-)

We not going to sit that place again adi rite? haha :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I just gotta post this. haha :-)

2010-01-13T00:49:00.001-08:00

:-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

2010-01-05T09:39:00.000-08:00

It's crazy how I miss you...
Wonder if you miss me the same way...
It's crazy how I wait by the phone for you...
Longing to hear your voice,
through out the whole day...

How have you been these days...??

Only His,
Jen Ruw

The Korean Looking Kachin Boy

2010-01-04T07:44:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, haha this post is for one of my treasured friend and brother in Christ. Whom had his birthday party celebrated today. :-) Those present were a whole bunch of Kachin brothers and sisters, Wen Cheong, Aaron Wong, Richard Liew, Jenny Wong and ME!! haha
His name is Raymond Aung.
Wonder why the weird name? haha He's a Kachin, Kachin is one of the smallest tribes in Myanmmar. He came to us during Camp Transformation in 2009, he and another guy Thomas Charlie. Raymond was shy as ever and still is. haha But since then he opened up himself to us and in return we learnt alot from him. His humility, his unending helpfulness, his faith that is as big as a mountain. haha :-) The simple he, loves God so much and trusts God so much that everytime something happens he will say, "Jen Ruw, I'm not scared, don't be scared cause God love us."
So this is his 16th birthday. haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAN!!! :-)
(he's still single by the way. haha)

Raymond with his chocolate cake. :-) He stuffed some into Richard's mouth. haha
Aaron and RaymondThis is one of their Kachin style noodles, Raymond's mom made it. IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaThis is another Kachin dish, SOUR VEG. It is the weirdest yet tastiest vegetable dish I've ever tried.Ok this is Chilli made in Kachin style. haha At first sight i tot it was the normal chilli we find in one of the pan mee restaurants, but damn this is nasty. Spicy and hot, Total awesomeness! haha
That's all for today. :-)
Happy Birthday again my brother. Grow in Christ and stay faithful till death. :-)

Are you missing me there? :-)

Only His,

Jen Ruw

The Waiting

2010-01-03T08:36:00.000-08:00

Guess I just have to wait till that day, we are allowed to be together and we could declare our love openly and have nothing to hide...
God give me the strength and the tears to cry cause this is gonna be a bumpy ride...
Because you love me, I will pull through for you...

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Some of the pass dug out from the deep.

2009-12-23T21:58:00.001-08:00

Was going though my friendster account today, cause it's been centuries since I've logged in to friendster. haha guess wat I've found? So many old pictures and here are some of them. :-)

This was my first picture in church when I came at form 4. I was so so thin-ner then... haha

And YES I found this picture of the guys taking bath out in the open doors. hahaha I can see even the now married Chee Wah, Vincent and Louis. haha All doing shampoo advert, nice~ And yuke bin being sexually harassed by an ice cube by Jason, Dillon and Vincent. Kesian. haha Those were the days. :-)

Ok, I know I look stupid and horny. haha But this was my coolest bald head I can ever get, haha Was thinking of something interesting and came up with a cross on my head... And it caused so much uproar in church. haha

This one was for my class profile. I was an idiot then so this pictures explains why. haha

Took this in Pavilion... and I wore that to Pavilion... Was there with Nigel and Yee Ling forgot what was it for, and my trusty sling bag. haha

My long hair moments... :-)
Hope you enjoyed the pictures.

It's crazy how we miss each other so much when we're apart. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

THIS IS OUR GOD by Hillsong

2009-12-22T08:47:00.000-08:00

I bought this album on Monday, and guess what? It was the best christian album I've ever had. haha Great mixture of songs and there are my favorite songs, like Stronger, Sing To The Lord, Desert Song and ultimately With Everything. I like the title of this album too, it is THIS IS OUR GOD, such strong words. haha This bunch of people from this hillsong church had inspire me to write songs and to only glorify God through my voice. Praise the Lord and bless those who give their hearts and strength to praise and worship God alone. I wish I could to, singing all day just so to please the Lord God Almighty. :-) AMEN!!!

This is the front cover, I feel so encouraged and touched by how thousands of people will stand to praise and worship God. Amazing... :-)

This is the back cover with the big title. haha

The song STRONGER reminds me of you. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Lord Your Will Be Done

2009-12-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

How should I start? In a short period of time, many things happened. Some were good and some were bad, some were sweet some were pieces of shit. (that rhymed. hahaha)

Been through many trials and troubles that always have made me fall short of God's glory. Always ending up in whole buckets of tears falling from my eyes, and just breaking down and really question Him. In some other time, scolding Him even... begging Him for an answer, but...
no answer...
But for the past few weeks, I realized, out of my stupid and ignorant head of mine. I found out His answers were always there right in front of me... I was just too blind and lost to see it.
Despite all that I've done and I cursed God, He was still there for me... Looking over me... Guiding me... Giving me strength... and sometimes even purposely slamming me into something bad so that I learn... :-) All was for me...
HE BLESSED ME WITH "THIS".
The answer was ''this''.
And I could not believe that it was there all along. hahaha
He showed me His love with ''this''.

These days, it is hard for me to pray one particular sentence,
"Your will be done Lord but not mine or anyone's."
Cause, God's will is and have been always a mystery to me. Something that is and also have always been good for me. So why is it so hard? That I can tell God, I won't do anything about ''this'' and only commit all onto your hands, laying all before Your feet...
Because my biggest fear is that what I love, is not His will at all... It scares me, and I tremble when I pray that His will be done in my life. But what I gotta do now, is just talk to Him day and night about this and hope He guides me through on ''this''. :-) I really love ''this''. It brings me so much joy and hope and most importantly it reminds me of God. :-)

Off to talking to my Daddy God now. hahaha I feel so sissy, but He's my Father and God. haha Ciaoz!! :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

2009-12-16T18:25:00.000-08:00

I was asked and forced to update my blog by somebody, haha but memang I dunno wat to update abt. Then I was playing with the fish on my blog right over on the right side of my blog

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So I tot maybe i should update on my own baby.
The GARPIKE. haha
When i bought the fella, it was as small as my thumb!! Seriously!! haha but now, after my tender care and loving kindness, it grew so big that it's length is as long as my arm!! And now I have to handle the fella with care and caution, cause it bit me once accidentally la... cause I was rough with it. Someday you just gotta see it eat, no fish can survive the fella, haha once I saw the fella swim at a fish and taking a bite at it, but the fella missed and the poor little fishy's head was bit off. haha AWESOME!!!! But I'm happy how big it grew and everytime I walk by it would greet me by knocking it's snout on to the glass. :-)

Presenting my most precious and valuable possession,

When my cousins first saw the fella and the size of it, they thought it was a crocodile... -.-
although it does look like a crocodile with it's snout, that's why in cantonese they call it
"ngok yu zou"
(Crocodile mouth)

This is only a quarter of its size compared to its other family members. haha
The ones I saw can grow so big it is as big as my whole leg!!! So I'm planning to build a huge cement pond for it and my other babies. :-) Updates on them will be frequent from now. haha

hug :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I Give To You

2009-12-13T07:44:00.000-08:00

Open our hearts, to receive You as King,
God of all days, You're the reason we sing,
Live in Your love, saved by Your grace,
We'll bring You praise, for the glory of Your name.

Make known to us, Your will and plans,
To be the church, mould by Your hands,
Compelled by Your word, amazed by Your love,
You paid a price, beyond what I'm worth.

We stand in awe of You,
The God that never fails my soul,
Your light will never fade away,
And forever it shall stay,
And forever it shall stay.

All I am, All I have,
I give You praise,
All I am, All I have,
I give to You,
We surrender our hearts to You, yeah,
Our hopes, Our dreams,
We give to You, We give to You.

All I am, All I have,
I give You praise,
All I am, All I have,
I give to You.

Only His,
Jen Ruw

The Beginning of an End

2009-12-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

GROUP ELEAZAR

Well, I stared into the screen like for half an hour and don't know where to start. :-) But here goes~
This group meant alot to me, because Firstly; by God's crazy plans and His undeserving love for me. i was given the post as an Asst Commander. Secondly; because of the members, the committees, the commanders and our mentor. It just ain't Eleazar without them. :-)

We cried, we bled, we fought, we screamed, we sang, we ran, we persevered for this group. And the list goes on. :-) But when it all shall end, the only prayer and hope for all of you guys from Group Eleazar. Is to give your heart to God, not to your friends in the group, not to the leaders in the group, but God and Him only. If you have not done that this year, here and now I challenge you to love God as He loved you, for next year and the years to come. :-)

Here is the last edited picture as group Eleazar,

"God!! I love you guys..." :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

Donald & Daisy

2009-12-09T09:28:00.000-08:00

Hey, if you are close to me you would know that now I'm a father. hahaha I have a son and a beautiful daughter, they always run to me when I call them, but as they are reaching their teen years, they are quite independent. :-( So they tend to roam around outside of home and only comes to me for food and shelter. haha

Typical for a teenager, they leave their mess for me to clean and always makes that cute baby face, the cute noises that convinces me to forgive them. Cilaka dia!!! haha
Din know what to write so tot that since with them around I feel like a parent. hahahaha I shall blog about them. :-) They are my DUCKLINGS, yes they are, DUCKLINGS. :-) Given by Yen Teng, she so regrets now about giving them to me. haha :-)

Here they are; Donald & Daisy, my grandmother said the larger one was the male. I was like, "Wahlau, both of them look the same, you also know which one male which one female."

hahahaThis one is the larger one, THE DUDE,The mess they left behind... not one mess but countless of them. hahaTill then, later, after, sooner, posts. :-)

Only His,
Jen Ruw

I'm back with bloggin !!!

2009-12-08T11:58:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, haha it's been a long time since I've started blogging again. So I tot why not i start anew?? :-) So this will be my first post, there will be more special things and posts to come. hahaha

Been going crazy over this guy, cause i sound like him. hahaha
Till then. :-)